If you’re going through hell, keep going! #PainWarriorPepTalk

I decided to use this quote for this week’s #PainWarriorPepTalk; “If you’re going through hell, keep going”. It is a common misconception that Winston Churchill said this, however it has never been recorded that he actually did say this.

Warriors, I pray that you will be encouraged by this short message. Sometimes a short sentence with a few words can carry a connotation of an essay. 

The only way you are going to make it out of your hell is to continue pushing your way through it. If we were to look at the semantics of this quote, the key word used here is ‘through’. When you go through something, there is an entry point, and also an exit point. Like when you go through a tunnel. You WILL come out on the other side. This is something I have heard my pastor (Pastor Mike White) say before pertaining to the word ‘through’. So warriors be reminded and encouraged; walk THROUGH your pain and keep your head up. You will make it out alive. You might still have your pain at the end of the tunnel, but the most important thing to have is your peace of mind so you will continue to live your life to the fullest. 

Hope you have a great week warriors,

Tasha M

@PainWarriorCode

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MRI tomorrow…this should be fun!

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So tomorrow is the day I finally have another MRI…will be posting about this. Pray for me warriors!

Tasha M

@PainWarriorCode

My Fight With Hemiplegic Migraines…And Anchors

I experienced a hemiplegic migraine attack for the first time. I wanted to share my experience with you and hopefully encourage you in the process.

Good Afternoon Warriors, I hope you are all having a decent weekend so far.

I wanted to share my experience with you and encourage you in the process.

Some of you may have seen that I posted a message on twitter, facebook and instagram, highlighting that I experienced a hemiplegic migraine attack for the first time on Friday.

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SO what happened?

Well I had been fighting off a migraine that had been lurking since the beginning of the week. I was quite successful in praying it away until Wednesday evening. It felt like an annoying – but normal headache. I figured it would have softened to a manageable level by the time I woke up on Thursday. However, that wasn’t the case…

I first woke up about 2 hours before my usual time. I felt EXTREMELY hot! I assumed it was because of the weather and attributed it to that. Thus, I spritzed myself with water and went back to sleep. When it was time to get up, I had woken up in a nightmare; the whole left side of my body was dead. My face, arm and torso couldn’t move. I felt an excruciating pain in my arm, as well as an intense throbbing in the left side of my head. This was extremely out of the ordinary for me because most of my migraine attacks usually take place on the RIGHT side of my head, or across the whole of my frontal lobe. My breath was also short and I was struggling to breathe.

Was I having a stroke? No I couldn’t be…I remember reading something about migraines being closely linked to strokes. About people having migraines that felt like a stroke…or people having a stroke that felt like a migraine…or was it about people having what they THOUGHT was a migraine, when really they were having a stroke? GOSH I COULDN’T REMEMBER!

So I panicked.

All rational thought had dispersed and I knew I wasn’t thinking clearly, so I dragged myself to my sister’s room next door. God is good because he used my sister. She helped me to calm down. She praised God and prayed to him for me when I couldn’t catch enough breath to do it myself. Once I calmed down, I was able to focus on putting my trust in God to sort the situation out.

By the end of the day, the feeling in my hand returned. But that was about it. In my head I wondered if I should go to the hospital, but I decided there was no point – I was already in enough pain and struggling to do anything. How on earth was I going to get dressed, go to the hospital and sit underneath blinding lights and crazy noise (remember I’m hypersensitive to BOTH) for countless hours, only to be given paracetamol? PARACETAMOL DOESN’T EVEN WORK FOR ME ANYWAY!!

The following day I was still in a lot of pain, and my arm/torso still felt like it was being tormented with pins and needles. The only description I could give at the time was “my arm felt like it wasn’t a part of my body anymore, like it was a separate body of it’s own”. It has been three days since it started and my arm still feels a bit disconnected sometimes, like it’s an add on.

After doing loads of research, I came to find out what I had experienced was a hemiplegic migraine: which are more rare than other types of migraines (according to the medical sites I’ve read). They differ greatly from the migraines I usually experience. The articles I read highlighted that they usually happen as a result of a mutated gene. They also pointed out that it sometimes takes people days for their body to fully recover and feel normal again after such attacks. So I’m keeping my head up and trusting God that it will pass. That I won’t have to experience this again. But I am reminded that if I was to experience such an attack again, God will be with me just the same. After all, he promised in the bible that he would never leave me nor forsake me. He also promised that he will be with me during the difficult times;

“…listen to the Lord who created you…I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.”

Isaiah 43:1-2

Warriors, what I experienced was frightening and made it very easy for me to panic. However after some time of reflection, I realised something; it’s important to have an anchor. That anchor is what pulls you down. It helps you to regain your senses and to think clearly when you are panicking. That anchor is the person you can trust to be 100% honest with you because they only ever have your best interest at heart. Now God essentially is the one who keeps you sane, upright and enables you to bounce back during situations that wreak havoc on your life. That being said, he will also place people around you to anchor you down and talk sense into you. Those people for me are essentially my sister and my mum.

Pain warriors, I encourage you to figure out who your anchors are – the people who you run to in times of need when you aren’t thinking clearly. They don’t always have to be people who are around you physically. For some of you, they might be people who you contact straight away online or via the phone. They might be friends or even colleagues who you work with. Once you have that individual in mind, take a moment to give thanks for those people. They have your back. If you feel like you don’t have one, trust that you will get one eventually, even if its through the spoonie communities online – that’s absolutely okay. Because that anchor will understand your struggle better than anybody else!

We all need someone to anchor us down when we are losing grip of everything. I urge you to hold on to your anchors, because they hold on to you.

Have a great weekend warriors. I’ll be sharing my update about my chronic life journey in the next few days!

Tasha M

@PainWarriorCode

 

Don’t Let Your Pain Diminish Your Spirit #PainWarriorPepTalk

Most of us pain warriors can’t control how our illness affects our bodies, but ALL of us can control how it affects our minds.

Hey Warriors,

I originally intended to write this as a short pain warrior pep talk, but I found the message kept developing further as I was typing it up. I believe there are many people whose spirit has been deflated by the constant internal battle they’ve had to face. I hope this helps…

This is a reminder to hold on to who you are. I have often written to you guys that you are more than your pain. There is more to you than your illness. Your illness is a part of who you are, of course. However don’t be deceived into believing that is ALL you are. 

Amongst other factors, your personality, character and experiences all play a part in shaping your identity. Your pain has also played a part without a doubt. However we must take the time to be reflective of ourselves & our illness. If not, our pain can dominate everything and cause us to be shaped into a person that is no longer even close to who we truly are. Pain IS hard. Pain DOES change you. But the one thing you must not allow your illness to do is diminish your spirit. Being ill will inevitably pull you down for a while, but choose to rise up again and fight back warriors. You deserve to have a good life. A good life doesn’t exclude hard times, unfortunately those are guaranteed. But you are allowed to have a life that is beautiful despite your struggles. I keep fighting because God has always been faithful and I’m reminded that he came so I could have life abundantly. An abundant life is not one that is solely consumed by my sickness, but one that is focused on having peace, love towards others, contentment and gratitude for the blessings that I have in my life. Now these things don’t come overnight – but through actively seeking God, they come over time. 

I’m sharing this because I want you to understand that my identity hardly comes from my sickness, but more from my relationship with God and my faith. That’s what has anchored me & pulled me back when I felt like my sickness was changing me for the worst. 

I encourage you all to remember who you are. Who you were before you got sick. That person is still in there, but has been buried under the rubble of your pain. Now I’m not talking about the immature or less aware parts of who you were. I’m focusing on those good parts of you that your illness has suppressed; maybe you used to be outgoing, patient, forgiving or even courageous. Those traits are essentially who you are. Allow them to rise to the surface again. Your illness has attacked your body and your mind, but you have the power to take your mind back again. Most of us pain warriors can’t control how our illness affects our bodies, but ALL of us can control how it affects our minds. Many of us just don’t realise this. I urge you to take some time out to reflect on where you are right now emotionally and mentally, and ask yourself where do you want to be. Everything starts with a choice being made. Then you fight to go and get it. Go and get yourself & your life back warriors. It’s YOURS for the taking! Remember that you are powerful and awesome! You rule! 

Tasha M

@PainWarriorCode

Hold on to your dreams!

Warriors, I encourage you to hold onto your dreams. Be the first to do what nobody else has done before…

Hey Warriors!

As you know, I was planing to post this the other day. But of course, having a chronic illness blog as somebody WITH a chronic illness – means you have those days that delay you because you’re in too much pain! 🙄😄🤦🏾‍♀️

I wanted to share this piece of encouragement with you via the image above. I felt it was important to share this because chronic illness turns your life upside down. At some point, this can render you hopeless. Nobody plans to have a chronic illness. So when it does show up, everything you HAD planned & dreamed of is threatened. It almost takes away the possibility of you achieving whatever you wanted. ALMOST. However it doesn’t have to. For some, your illness will force you in the direction that brings about the change of your dreams. Trust and believe that this change will work out for your good.

On the other hand, some of you may be in circumstances where your dream can be achieved, but you might have to go through some unconventional things to make it happen. Just trust that you will get there.

Warriors, I encourage you to hold onto your dreams. Sometimes your circumstances are forcing you to believe your dream is impossible, but I dare you to challenge that. Be the first to do what nobody else has done before. It’s okay to walk the path that nobody else has before – that’s what makes you a trailblazer. If anybody can be a trailblazer – it’s you warriors!

Tasha M

@PainWarriorCode

The Mystery Blogger Award

Warriors, I’ve been nominated for the Mystery Blogger Award!

I would like to send my love, appreciation and gratitude to the lovely Cindy from Chronic Pain With A Higher Perspective Blog. Her posts are very honest and inspiring to people who are dealing with chronic pain and maintaining their faith in God at the same time. Go and check out Cindy’s blog Chronic Pain With A Higher Perspective

What is Mystery Blogger Award?
“This is an award for amazing bloggers with indigenous posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging and they do it with so much love and passion.” – Okoto Enigma

Rules

• Thank whoever nominated you and include link to their blog

• Tell your readers 3 things about yourself

• Nominate 10-20 bloggers you feel deserve the award

• Answer the questions from the person who nominated you

• Ask your nominees 5 questions of your choice with one weird or funny one

• Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog

3 things about myself;

1) I am a singer-Songwriter and musician. I love playing and writing music. I am very passionate about it and continue to hone my craft

2) I. Love. Marvel! I’m so serious. Everything they do is awesome (except for the last fantastic four film – great casting but terrible plot/structure)

3) I want to set foot in each continent across the globe. I have always had serious wanderlust. I trust I will get to fulfil my dreams of getting to see the world.

My Nominees for this award are;

My Medical Musings

R5:3-5 (Romans 5:3-5) Blog

Gail Loves God

Fight MS Daily

Pain Pals

My Brain Lesion and Me

Life With An Illness

Dinosaurs, Donkeys and MS

Brainless Blogger

The Autoimmune Hippie

The Wounded Healer

Chronic Pain With A Higher Perspective

Answers to questions from nominee;

1) If money was no object, I would probably do songwriting/gigging full time. I love to perform and share my music. I enjoy the process of writing and crafting a song into something beautiful that helps and touches people

2) aside from necessities, the one thing I couldn’t survive a day without is hand cream. I am OBSESSED about the moisture state of my hands. I cannot focus or do anything if my hands are dry. Seriously.

3) in the movie of my life, I would probably want taraji p Henson to play me. She is such a great and complex actress that can portray the struggles than anybody has faced in life. She can do it!

4) My goals for 2018 is to grow the Pain Warrior Code blog – to share more of my story & inspire others with it. Another goal of mine is to share more of my music and take more steps by faith to make this happen.

5) My favourite band? Seriously? One cannot simply narrow it down to one! I do like Kings of Leon, Lawson, CNBlue, N.E.R.D and Paramore are a few.

My questions for my nominees:

1) what made you want to start blogging?

2) as this award is about blogs that inspire and motivates – do you as a nominee have a mantra, proverb or saying that you live by?

3) if you had to choose one meal that you had to eat everyday for a month (without any health consequences), what would it be?

4) what is your favourite hobby/pass time?

5) What’s the best / worst practical joke that you’ve played on someone or that was played on you?

I look forward to your posts of this blog,

Warriors I’ll be posting a new article and video for you this week!

Tasha M

@PainWarriorCode

Don’t over exert yourself! #PainWarriorPepTalk

You know your limits & triggers warriors. Don’t push yourself so far over the edge that you spend longer having to nurse yourself back to your normal, functioning state. Be wise & practical.

Tasha M

@PainWarriorCode